if i only knew what regret meant

yes, you're just listening to my boring rants

Monday, January 26, 2009

it's not right

i hate this deafening silence between us
a formidable barricade you have cast
the moments of quiet and no response
really lets me feel so insecure

keep me away
block me away
pretend i aint here
and you've got nothing to fear

another journey soon begins
but where it ends
the path is dim
through twists and bends

a glimpse is seen
of where it leads
but only with eyes so keen
and a willing heart that heeds

only in faith can one proceed
through the distant haze
with none to lead
the way through the tangled maze

many have travelled this path before
while others stood in time
frozen before the door
never to answer the chime

the distant ringing
drawing the lonely traveller near
with hypnotising singing
calming all fears

a leap of faith is all it takes
to experience it all
one move to make
and forever avoid the fall

but all too many souls
can't make the stand
to fill the empty hole
and never quite understand

the strength to grow
is deep inside
but once its found, all will know
for it, you can never hide

thus, when will i really know
will it be just an empty hole
a void i've created on my own accord
how do we tell who's at fault

perhaps i should end this futile dream
a dream that was not mine to keep
i am broken or so it seems
help me get back on my feet

astrocow
23:52


I am an object lost in space
I am fear without a face
I am future without meaning
I am helping without feeling

I am twisted and deranged
I am alone in this cage
I can help if help need be
But there's a monster inside of me

He fights for freedom and control
There's a monster in my soul
Leave me without knowing why
Or run the risk of losing your life

I'll care for you, wipe away your tears
And scare away your darkest fears
For darkness is my dearest friend
And with it all my time I spend

Left all alone in my cage
Anger gives its way to rage
I fight for freedom and control
From the monster in my soul

I am weak for I always lose
Madness the escape I choose
If you should meet me on the street
Know insanity is what you'll greet

Stay not long within my presence
For it'll strike you with a vengeance
Then we both shall slip down the slope
The slope of madness without hope


welcome to my humble abyss




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