Tuesday, May 30, 2006
skin YOU alive
this is great. as if i didn't have enough problems to deal with. some fucker came along and stole my pair of nike shoes worth $200 ++. damnit.
that fucker better pray hard that i do not bump into him in school wearing my shoes. i will bloody skin him alive and make sure he gets sucked into shit never known to him ever before.
why am i so sure i'll recognise my shoes? because there is only one of them around. plus mine has a special mark on the shoe sumwhere which only me and daniel will know, that kid. i'm glad he did what he did after this incident.
be afraid. be very afraid.
astrocow
18:11
Friday, May 26, 2006
of penicillin and paracetanol
what is the meaning of this?
it has taken me from the anger
it has taken me from the hate
i did not know they would come together
to release the demons inside my head
paralyzed and nothing's getting through to me.
hypnotized from all my surroundings
i wanna be something I could never be
i wanna say things that I could never say
sick of my life. i'm tired of everything in my life
dragged down and rubbing my face in the ground
no time for the undecided
i wanna know why I've always felt alone
but I wanna love. am I untouchable?
sick of my life. i'm tired of everything in my life
i never wanted to be sick of my life
i'm tired of everything in my life
astrocow
01:43
dilemma dissolved
went job hunting with weiming on monday and ended up having a free haircut instead. haha we were just sitting down at the bugis's macs and flipping through the papers when this lady suddenly came over and asked us if we wanted our hair cut. in fact at that point in time i had only sat down for no more than 5 min. ok quite a few pple may have encountered this before but it's a first for me so bear with me yea?
and so we trudged down to the toni and guy's academy haha (free haircut free haircut woohoo~). it ended up all kinda bad actually, i din really like the styling and the cut but u haf to give it to them lar, they are just students afterall and it was FREE so don't complain too much. anyhow, complain i must and i say i look like a butch now, yes a goddamn freaking butch... NO, no photos for u guys!
ok on the brighter side, i get to have ANOTHER appointment with the company for a bleaching session or wadeva u call it. and its gonna be done by the directors this time so i reckon it'll be a lil' more pro. however i'm worried that it may be too outlandish. not that i mind but if i'm gonna go for interviews with THAT kinda hair, erm, i dun erm, suppose my chances will be that good.
dilemma, dilemma, dilemma...
but i decided to be normal just for once.
astrocow
01:39
Friday, May 19, 2006
finally
my new skin is up, spent about 4 hrs on it. what do you guys think? there's still abit left to touch up for example, the tagboard but i'll leave that to later cos i'm too tired now...
personally i still prefer the old one cos u can see everything at one glance unlike this one. but this one is more fanciful with more scripting and stuff so yea.. haha
comments please.
astrocow
07:08
Thursday, May 18, 2006
new new new
working on a new skin.. stay tuned..
think i'm feeling slightly better already, except that i'm still coughing and my nose is still stuck at times..
time to get my arse back to work.
ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzzzzzzzzzzzz....
astrocow
08:11
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
change = constant
yes i know it's goddamn cliche, but we all have to admit it's the truth.
read this from my friend's blog (if you wanna know the addy, lemme know).
i quote him :"Doing something that you want to though people or situations are discouraging. So many people talk and dream of doing this and that but never got round to it. At first, they give the reason that they need time to be prepared - financially, physically or mentally. After a few years, it becomes they are getting a lot of commitments that warrant their attention. Finally, at 50 plus, they will say that they are reaching retirement (or old) and cannot risk anymore. At 70, they will look back and wish they had taken the chance when they are younger.
I think the above is sobering (and tragic). But the irony is that all of us know of someone like that. We could one of them too. As life gets more and more cushy, the more risk-averse we become. Why put things in jeopardy when all is ..comfortable? Well, becos you would irritate others and yourself with your self-resignation and whining at 70!
I say put 40 as a cut-off. Can you say at 40 that you are somewhat doing, or at least embarking on, things that you wanna do in life? Huh? Huh? Huh? Huh? Huh?"
totally struck a chord with me when i read this post. just walk by to any coffeeshop in your neighbourhood, how many of them uncles are actually lamenting "i should have done this, i should have done that" do we really want to end up like them in the future?
life is unpredictable and full of surprises, be it good or bad.
my insights on this are aplenty and if i were to type this out here, it'll probably be like a full fledged essay.
just wondering, how many of us have actually thought about this?
astrocow
07:20
pek-chek ah!!!
KNNBCCB!!! poor, ill and lonely. what more can i say? sometimes its not that i don't wanna do certain stuff, it's just that i don't have the means to. hope you understand.
daniel just told me he thinks my blog is "full of angst, like want to kill everybody like that". but it really is how i feel inside, but u definitely don't expect to go around showing people this side of me isn't it? not that i'm a hypocrite, but who would dare to get close to you much less even want to talk to you? i'm trying to change but until i am satisfied with what i have, i'll be like this until then.
astrocow
07:15
Monday, May 15, 2006
yea, try me
i've fallen ill. not nuff slp for the past few days has taken its toll on me. it really is getting a tad too tough, i'm trying to hold on and persist. i hope i can do it, really. i've sort of taken a gamble by making the choices that i have made, let's hope that i can win this bet this time. afterall, life is all bout gambles and taking risks and making choices.
i do hope that the pple arnd me will be enlightened, but then again i can't spend too much time and effort on them because i've got other things at hands at well. i'm not even done with my own stuff, how on earth can i be bothering bout others?
okay, so i wasn't chosen for the MJ committee in the end. it doesn't really matter to me because it would only be nothing more than a pleasant surprise. right now, i've just gotta settle the orientation dance choreo.
too many things to blog about because i've not been here for so long, but guess nobody cares either.
till next time.
astrocow
15:35
Saturday, May 06, 2006
30 seconds to mars - oblivion
i'm living in oblivion. why do i say that? i have been hell busy and friggin tired from god knows what. accquired fatigue perhaps, only the occasional dose of kopi peng is keeping me alive.
exams are finally O-V-E-R. i'm am ecstatic to say the least, but it seems like i've got nothing to do all of a sudden. contradictory? oblivion. oh and need i mention exams were like *ka-boom*? kill me man, throw me ur hand
i'll take it there, fair and square
furious stabs, lemme see the scabs
profuse blood, u noe u made the cut
guilty minds, pay u back in kind
clear conscience, what u really yearn
ok that was kinda lousy.
gotta go home tml (2hrs time) to vote. finances getting screwed up, god help me. tanned ass, anyone? lol
alot of things have changed - people, environment, myself. has it all changed so fast that it overwhelms me so? nonetheless, i'm prepared to solider on in this never ending war. perhaps not
the gays haf retaliated by posting some very defensive comments and removed the tagboard. i haf always kinda respected them until those posts came along. kids are ultimately just kids and temper control is hardly ever present. i'm disappointed, oh well.
girls are just like apples
apples on a tree
boys are hungry people
they crave the juice that the apples bring
they are too lazy to climb the tree
so they pick up those that have dropped
or are already rotten
this leaves the good apples at the top
hope that'll be nuff to convey my msg. haha too tired now to be elaborating further on it
hehez.
laters
astrocow
05:07