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Friday, October 17, 2008

the meaning of life

hey peeps, if you can't stand long posts then dun bother reading on haha. just wanted to find something to write about, quite random la =p

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death comes to life when we become stagnant, not because of a car accident nor an incurable disease.

don't ever give up on truly living.

a lot of people has denounced evolution or even mocked it. i want to first start by saying evolution is real - we evolve internally as people, it's not just physical. i believe as we physically evolve, we also emotionally and intellectually evolve, sometimes even simultaneously.

i feel that all of us at some point are thrown curve balls that causes us to change so that we don't remain stagnant in our lives. the world is not THAT boring. think about it, maybe you were stagnant for a period in your life. but considering how long you have lived and probably will live, were you really stagnant? maybe you were comfortable yet consistent, but did life really stop?

my answer would have to be "no". life never really dies. life can become routine and consistent but that doesn't continue indefinitely. there isn't one person reading this that can say that their what "seemed" consistent life hasn't changed at some point. we are destined for change. i dont believe that we were put on this earth to "sulk within our comfort zones". who really does that? i mean to have a comfort zone is a blessing. it's something to be embraced and appreciated. not to look down upon and view as too much consistency in our lives resulting in becoming stagnant, but please dont stay in there for too long haha

treat it as a gift, because a life that seems so stagnant will not stay that way for too long. we are not promised tomorrow so it's best to make the best of what we have today. so if we are in a stage in our life where things are slow and consistent, thank God for that. because the inconsistencies that may come to life are not always easy to conquer and not always pleasant.

life is a test. we are often being challenged with different life lessons. it's what living is all about. these life lessons allow change. every time i'm faced with an obstacle not only do i learn from it but i evolve from that experience. how can we go thru certain things in life and NOT change? that doesn't make sense. sometimes these things force us to change whether we desire to or not.

who really goes through life in a constant comfort zone stagnant? i would say no one. if life is stagnant now, it may not be tomorrow or next week. who knows? there have been times in my life where i was in my comfort zone, but i was uncomfortable because I knew that there was more. i also knew that it wouldn't last and quite frankly i didn't want it to.

just when i think i know myself, i am thrown in a situation that shows me a new side of me, is that bad? no, I actually think that is beautiful. i know that personally i am of constant change. i used to think it was shameful to not have found myself at 24, i am now actually proud of it. how can i know myself when i know there are more things to accomplish and experience in life that may change me? all hopefully being positive, but embracing the negative too.

we do not necessarily internally die if our lives so happen to become stagnant (comfortable) at times unless we choose to stop living and never attempt to grow from that. so comfort in our consistent lives equate to it coming to a halt? no, because we are still living.

we also do not necessarily need to go out and explore other options. no, because sometimes those options present themselves to us, even forcing us in it. we can easily go with the flow of our lives and it doesnt mean because we do that it will remain consistent. God intends for us to have certain situations to invade our lives for us to learn from them and change.

how many people go through life in a "comfort zone" only for it to be taken away? i am sure many of us, if not all at some point in our lives will experience that. it is how life plays itself out. we can be comfortable with who we are and where we are going only for something to happen to change all of that. its up to us to grow from that experience but never regress.

do we need other people to inspire us? or can we grow and evolve all by ourselves? if we stopped meeting new people one day, do we stop evolving? do we just die, internally?

no, because life inspires us. people just play a part in it. i feel that internally we do grow by ourselves. people don't change us, situations do. meeting new people has nothing to with us changing. we can change just as easily with the people in our lives now. is our emotional and intellectual growth stinted? yeah i believe so. meeting new people does aid us in learning more about ourselves and our environment that surrounds us.

adam and eve just had themselves but don't think that they didn't evolve. therefore we ultimately change on our own. it proves that people can yes, inspire us but people cannot change us. our self evolution is internal and not external. i control me, not the people around me.

astrocow
18:13


I am an object lost in space
I am fear without a face
I am future without meaning
I am helping without feeling

I am twisted and deranged
I am alone in this cage
I can help if help need be
But there's a monster inside of me

He fights for freedom and control
There's a monster in my soul
Leave me without knowing why
Or run the risk of losing your life

I'll care for you, wipe away your tears
And scare away your darkest fears
For darkness is my dearest friend
And with it all my time I spend

Left all alone in my cage
Anger gives its way to rage
I fight for freedom and control
From the monster in my soul

I am weak for I always lose
Madness the escape I choose
If you should meet me on the street
Know insanity is what you'll greet

Stay not long within my presence
For it'll strike you with a vengeance
Then we both shall slip down the slope
The slope of madness without hope


welcome to my humble abyss




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