Death is a delightful hiding place for weary men.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

all i see

youre all i see =)

hehehe :D

now this should cheer you up a bit!

my personal favourites! i think its lovely

im sorry if i've said anything wrong which broke your heart >.<
but please do know, i love you no matter what.

astrocow
14:54

tired

i'm so sick of this. like someone said, what's the point?

astrocow
02:09

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

rollercoaster ride

that's what the past few days have been.

astrocow
06:29

Friday, October 17, 2008

the meaning of life

hey peeps, if you can't stand long posts then dun bother reading on haha. just wanted to find something to write about, quite random la =p

* * * * *
death comes to life when we become stagnant, not because of a car accident nor an incurable disease.

don't ever give up on truly living.

a lot of people has denounced evolution or even mocked it. i want to first start by saying evolution is real - we evolve internally as people, it's not just physical. i believe as we physically evolve, we also emotionally and intellectually evolve, sometimes even simultaneously.

i feel that all of us at some point are thrown curve balls that causes us to change so that we don't remain stagnant in our lives. the world is not THAT boring. think about it, maybe you were stagnant for a period in your life. but considering how long you have lived and probably will live, were you really stagnant? maybe you were comfortable yet consistent, but did life really stop?

my answer would have to be "no". life never really dies. life can become routine and consistent but that doesn't continue indefinitely. there isn't one person reading this that can say that their what "seemed" consistent life hasn't changed at some point. we are destined for change. i dont believe that we were put on this earth to "sulk within our comfort zones". who really does that? i mean to have a comfort zone is a blessing. it's something to be embraced and appreciated. not to look down upon and view as too much consistency in our lives resulting in becoming stagnant, but please dont stay in there for too long haha

treat it as a gift, because a life that seems so stagnant will not stay that way for too long. we are not promised tomorrow so it's best to make the best of what we have today. so if we are in a stage in our life where things are slow and consistent, thank God for that. because the inconsistencies that may come to life are not always easy to conquer and not always pleasant.

life is a test. we are often being challenged with different life lessons. it's what living is all about. these life lessons allow change. every time i'm faced with an obstacle not only do i learn from it but i evolve from that experience. how can we go thru certain things in life and NOT change? that doesn't make sense. sometimes these things force us to change whether we desire to or not.

who really goes through life in a constant comfort zone stagnant? i would say no one. if life is stagnant now, it may not be tomorrow or next week. who knows? there have been times in my life where i was in my comfort zone, but i was uncomfortable because I knew that there was more. i also knew that it wouldn't last and quite frankly i didn't want it to.

just when i think i know myself, i am thrown in a situation that shows me a new side of me, is that bad? no, I actually think that is beautiful. i know that personally i am of constant change. i used to think it was shameful to not have found myself at 24, i am now actually proud of it. how can i know myself when i know there are more things to accomplish and experience in life that may change me? all hopefully being positive, but embracing the negative too.

we do not necessarily internally die if our lives so happen to become stagnant (comfortable) at times unless we choose to stop living and never attempt to grow from that. so comfort in our consistent lives equate to it coming to a halt? no, because we are still living.

we also do not necessarily need to go out and explore other options. no, because sometimes those options present themselves to us, even forcing us in it. we can easily go with the flow of our lives and it doesnt mean because we do that it will remain consistent. God intends for us to have certain situations to invade our lives for us to learn from them and change.

how many people go through life in a "comfort zone" only for it to be taken away? i am sure many of us, if not all at some point in our lives will experience that. it is how life plays itself out. we can be comfortable with who we are and where we are going only for something to happen to change all of that. its up to us to grow from that experience but never regress.

do we need other people to inspire us? or can we grow and evolve all by ourselves? if we stopped meeting new people one day, do we stop evolving? do we just die, internally?

no, because life inspires us. people just play a part in it. i feel that internally we do grow by ourselves. people don't change us, situations do. meeting new people has nothing to with us changing. we can change just as easily with the people in our lives now. is our emotional and intellectual growth stinted? yeah i believe so. meeting new people does aid us in learning more about ourselves and our environment that surrounds us.

adam and eve just had themselves but don't think that they didn't evolve. therefore we ultimately change on our own. it proves that people can yes, inspire us but people cannot change us. our self evolution is internal and not external. i control me, not the people around me.

astrocow
18:13

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

excitement

I AM GOING TO SPEAK TO WADE ROBSON!!! lol for those who have no idea who he is, check out his webpage here.

for the lazy bums, he is superb dancer, choreographer and many more. check out his vid on youtube when he was just 8 years old dancing as michael jackson here. he has choreographed many pieces for the popular dance show, So You Think You Can Dance. click here for one of my favourites and the original version here, i prefer the original hehe. he has also won an Emmy for his choreography! this routine here is up for another Emmy nomination!

can't believe this is coming true lol. he will be coming to Singapore 31 Oct and 1 Nov for a two-day workshop which costs $200+ for 2 days and i'll get to attend them for free! muahahahah.

on a sidenote, this week seems to pass especially slow. but my birthday is coming on sunday!

MY BIRTHDAY IS 19th OCTOBER 2008, SUNDAY

hehe *hint hint* but please don't sabo me ok! =p

i think i may have just found the one for me, all i need to do now is be patient and wait, which i totally suck at. but good stuff are always worth the wait. may this be the last.

astrocow
16:59

Friday, October 10, 2008

so sick

lifetimes are spent in anticipation
always looking for what's around the bend
such a life can end up in frustration
if our happiness must always depend

on what's next, for if we ignore today
and all its endless possibilities
then we are throwing happiness away
how could you set your mind at ease?

each moment is an opportunity
so take in all we can of our precious life
when we greet each new day positively
we can cut through sorrow with the sharp knife
of joy and live our lifes fruitfully

if we can't appreciate life right now
we seem to lose a piece of it somehow
and right now, i'm just waiting for the kick
from the paracetanol, for i am sick

* * * * *

say hello to the little me
the one who can't reach the key
that sits on the table
but this is no childhood fable

that key opens the door to a world

a world where there is no despair
a world none other can compare
so lift me above this raging sea of tears
show me not a diamond but a pearl

a sigh i heave
i need to breathe
set me somewhere within your line of sight
and keep me real close to your light

this unexplainable fear of the dark
has left on me a wretched mark
but if you could start a spark
right now together we'll embark

to this different place
where we would live with grace
not even leaving a proper trace
and we would leave with no disgrace

can you stay with me forever?
and not leave me whatsoever?

we could live by the ocean
we could live in slow motion
we might become a mystery
a small part of history

so this is my plea
reach out for the key

open the door

and let's go.

* * * * *

astrocow
13:34

Sunday, October 05, 2008

my own personal...

you know the words i have to say
you are my own personal day
you make everything here seem right
you are my own personal night

every wish i've had you have done
you are my own personal sun
you make me happy morn, night and noon
you are my own personal moon

you control the heart inside of me
you are my own personal sea
you make me smile and heave a sigh
you are my own personal sky

you make all in the world fair
you are my own personal air
you make the world nice to live in
you are my own personal wind

you make everything right that's wrong
you are my own personal song
you make me float above the nocturnal arc
you are my own personal Bach

you are my day, my night, my sea, my sky
my sun, my moon, my song but why?
you are my life, my all - that's why
so take my hand and don't be shy

we'll skirt the universe with love
and fly to places high above
so please stay here and be my lark
you are my song, my personal Bach

astrocow
12:16

snow patrol - chasing cars

we'll do it all
everything
on our own

we don't need
anything
or anyone

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?

i don't quite know
how to say
how i feel

those three words
are said too much
they're not enough

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?

forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden
that's bursting into life

let's waste time
chasing cars
around our heads

i need your grace
to remind me
to find my own

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?

forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden
that's bursting into life

all that i am
all that i ever was
is here in your perfect eyes
they're all i can see

i don't know where
confused about how as well
just know that these things
will never change for us at all

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?

astrocow
12:05