Death is a delightful hiding place for weary men.

if i only knew what regret meant

yes, you're just listening to my boring rants

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

lost

adrift on a sea of hopes and prayers
lost on the waves, i cry to deaf ears
the irony of this is i set sail on purpose
my soul was the sail of my salty tears

nobody sees me
nobody cares

the tunnel is black and its creatures foul
screeching out loud hear their howls
no light at the end
no god to attend
just a mangy dog to share his fleas
make me twitch and hear my pleas

i cry and feed the angry sea
drawing jagged lines across my flesh
the red wells up, liquid and glistening
it doesnt matter, nobody's listening

hitching breaths that will not die
i persist but i don't know why
i am i and nothing is for me to say
maybe it was not to be this way
drift away, far away - life isn't fair

nobody sees me
nobody cares

* * * * *

perhaps i should just stop day-dreaming.
i went round so many of my friends' blogs like most of them are talking about relationships about love.
IMO, the first relationship that you get into is the one that gets you into deep shit. you will inadvertently split up (tell me how many of you are still with your first boy/girlfriend). you get this empty void in your heart that is empty - a place where he/she used to occupy. you look for another to occupy that place and the whole process repeats.

people these days start dating at such young ages - i mean wtf, your first boyfriend/girlfriend at 13/14? i was still learning what masturbation was all about. zzz do they really understand what love is about? can they really picture themselves spending the rest of their lives with that guy/girl? even at 23/24 i still can't really fathom or grasp a rough idea of it. once it starts to hit a year or so, is it really still love or is it just comfort zone? grey area huh?

why do people fall in love? why do i fall in love? seriously i duno why. sick and tired of relationships. one fails after another. so many wasted years thinking something good will come out of it. but at the pace life is going now, one cannot really take their time to evaluate the other partner. its like a mega sale - first come first serve. miss it and its gone but if u take it, it may just be another rotten fish out there in the ocean.

"It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved before" - i beg to differ.

why do people fall in love? don't we know love is full of dangers?
letting loose our foolish hearts in this world of perfect strangers
maybe this time you will find that the moon will treat you kinder

love is needing to belong right or wrong, when you feel the fire
love is living in mid-air young and rare, on a sky-high wire
hoping this time it will last, you feel your heart beat faster

taking chances you would never take
when wide awake, you risk it all
half afraid that your heart will break
you close your eyes and simply fall

why do people fall in love? are we fools with no hope of winning?
or perhaps we always see one last chance for a new beginning
holding on and letting go but never really knowing
well i guess afterall that's the reason people fall in love

astrocow
15:07