Death is a delightful hiding place for weary men.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

dreams are made of these

(song by ian van dahl)
do you ever question your life?
do you ever wonder why?
do you ever see in your dreams?
all the castles in the sky?

please tell me why
do we build castles in the sky?
oh tell me why
all the castles way up high..

and the writing starts, be prepared..

last night i dreamt of death's peerless beauty
so perfect it was in obscurity
my soul's fairy come to steal me away
a beautiful executioner to silence my screams
for the price of lucent dreams

she smiled at me
a lure any fish would envy
its seduction is effortless
as she has also been to the deepest parts of the abyss
the aberrant charm it portrays
producing a deadly fascination for its prey

those eyes, flat and black
mirrors that refuse to reflect
dead as doll's eyes
hypnotize

bruised sky
brooding over the sun's punishment
and subsequent abandonment
dead leaves rattle
influx of invisible particles
coalesce

death was just your evolution
fairytale monster
apocalypse is your name
undo all who fall under your long shadow

i chased a white rabbit
and found myself falling
down, down, down
the illusion dissolved
ethereal demon with the stygian gaze
lambent, merciless, cannibalistic
erotic, carnal, sadistic
the mysteries are no riddle to you, immortal

i am but a marionette under that force
a glimmer, tiny, golden key
perfect fit but for a fee
drink me -upon a shady reunion
paled upon teeth sharp as gridiron
beautiful...too beautiful to be anything but a monster
oxymorons forever

fat, red droplets like rubies
scar his white kid gloves
shutting up like a telescope - what a curious feeling
sanguine visions
i am reeling
crushing fear, buzzing in my ear
or is it her voice
that voice
deep yet silky
lulling
sinfully narcotic

looking for the white kid gloves in vain
he purrs as he drinks,
a drowning sound
the slow corrosion of my beliefs
as i sustain him and hemorrhage
in mesmeric throbs
delirium, paroxysm and excruciating
pretty prize for the winner of the race

ostentatious fanfare
an assumption that i would see the sun another time
i never guessed that today i would end
but some stories do end in the middle
don't they? oh don't they?

the owl and the panther coexist -
impossibility is only a state of mind
bite the china cup
and taste exquisite blood
what's important doesn't matter anymore
a secret, well kept from them all
between yourself and me
dire and ruinous as it may be

but that was only a dream after all
the pendulum has swung and heads will fall
relentless to the very end
a delicious paradox for the loving friend
now I am the one in a pack of cards
ravenous and inexorable when it cuts
off to wonderland with a simple kiss
but you'll never meet alice

don't ask me why it got so twisted when i started with dreams...
maybe i don't have them, nightmare conquers all...

astrocow
18:21

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

quotable quotes

many things on my mind lately, i can finally be at peace with myself i think for as Malcolm X puts it:

"You can't separate peace from freedom because no one can be at peace unless he has his freedom."

its all over and parting is such sweet sorrow
sorrow it shall be and let there be no tomorrow
for if it comes we shall be cursed
by the pricking of my thumbs
something wicked this way comes

but love is blind, and lovers cannot see
the pretty follies that themselves commit
there is nothing either good or bad
but thinking makes it so

many things on my mind
i really wanna find
how to put these thoughts to words
how to make it work
in my arms
rains will pour down
waves will crash out loud
noises noises noises
brings you through the phases
of kings and queens
storybooks are full of fairytales
of wars soldiers bleed to win
never relenting on the kills

one death is a tragedy but a million deaths is just a statistic

many things on my mind
i'll keep them in my mind
where it belongs
the place where they call home
there's a reason for everything
a reason why people think
and here is mine

its better to be silent and be thought a fool
than to speak and remove all doubt

i have my freedom now, so please let me be at peace
find me this inner peace
and i will leave you alone
disturb me not or u shall face the wrath
i promise its going to be rough

astrocow
14:25

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

whine whine whine

not in a poetic mood haha, i wanna whine! audi just had a patch last night - new chance modes etc. so excited to try it out only to find out tmd now the "End" key can also be used to press for chance like "Del" like that.

Ok now friends who knows how i play 8k knows that i use "Home", "End", "Page Up" and "Page Down" for my diagonals! now they add this blardy "End" in, everytime after i press finish i gotta check if my chance is on anot WTF man, got one "Del" key not enough meh?!

totally no mood to play zzz moo~~

ok that aside, there's cause for rejoice cos at least there is one nice song - "Kotic - Freestyle". but the band/singer name abit erm.. kortek? LOL

astrocow
12:26

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

iHate

two timers

astrocow
16:42

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

scars

i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut
my weakness is that i care too much
and my scars remind me that the past is real
i tear my heart open just to feel

drunk and i'm feeling down
and i just wanna be alone
i'm pissed cos you came around
why don't you just go home
cos you channel all your pain
and i can't help you fix yourself
you're making me insane
all i can say is go away
and never come back

i tried to help you once
against my own advice
i saw you going down
but you never realised
that you're drowning in the water
so i offered you my hand
compassion's in my nature
tonight is our last stand

i'm drunk and i'm feeling down
and i just wanna be alone
you shouldn't ever come around
why don't you just go home?
cos you're drowning in the water
and i tried to grab your hand
and i left my heart open
but you didn't understand
go fix yourself

i can't help you fix yourself
but at least i can say i tried
i'm sorry but i gotta move on with my own life

with every passing day
i move closer to the ray
ray of hope oh holy light
give me strength for the fight

disgust me, gross me out make yourself detestable
optimism is living in denial

astrocow
11:59

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

angels

fact or fiction. doesnt really matter.
other reactions under the weather.

sparkling angel i believe
you were my saviour in my time of need
blinded by faith i couldnt hear
all the whispers, warnings so clear

sparkling angel i couldnt see
your dark intentions, your feelings for me
fallen angel tell me why
what is the reason, that thorn in your eye

this world may have failed you
it doesnt give the reason why
you could have chose a different path in life

i see the angels
i'll lead them to your door
there's no escape now
no mercy no more
no remorse cos i still remember

the smile when you tore me apart
you took my heart
deceived me right from the start
you showed me dreams
i wished they'd turn into real
you broke a promise and made me realise
it was all just a lie
could have been forever
but now we have reached the end

oh my sparkling angel the fallen angel
we are no more then mere integers
like puppets in a Shakespearean play
ever longing to be in the fray

i love how your eyes flow
sparkling with a tinge of sorrow
irony begets me

astrocow
16:41