Death is a delightful hiding place for weary men.

if i only knew what regret meant

yes, you're just listening to my boring rants

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

lonely christmas

horrible horrible christmas.. spent working T_T

duno why and cant explain it either but this year's christmas seems extraordinarily boring. hope it passes soon, really cant wait.

just how many real frens do i haf? issit so hard just to find sumbody to talk to? *sigh*

and yea, i think i've been accused of something i did not do.

frustrations and yet it seems as tho there's nothing i can do. but den again i cant really be bothered to explain la. if that's wad others think den so be it.

sick and tired.

astrocow
07:22

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

a new beginning

getting used to the new life. running to and fro between my house and parklane, catching barely a couple of hours of sleep each day now. haf to get used to it i guess but before i do so, fell sick zzz

den again it means MC yippee! lol

i'm sucha faggot damn

astrocow
05:16

Friday, December 07, 2007

narcolepsy

i'm on a train but there's no one at the helm
and there's a demon in my brain
who starts to overwhelm
and there it goes, my last chance for peace
you lay me down but i get no release
i try to swim beneath
i try to keep awake
but i can feel this narcolepsy slide
into another nightmare

and there's a demon in my head who starts to play
a nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday
and i hold my breath till its more than what i can take
and i close my eyes and dream that i'm awake

and there's a bone in my hand that connects to a drink
in a crowded room where the glasses clink
and i'll buy you a beer and well drink it deep
because that keeps me from falling asleep

i said "how'd you like to be alone and drowning"

still i find this narcolepsy slide
slide into another nightmare

visions of you on a motorcycle drive-by
the cigarette ash flies in your eyes and you don't mind,
you say the world doesn't fit with you
i don't believe you, you're so serene
careening through the universe, your axis on a tilt, you're guiltless and free
i hope u take a piece of me with you
and there are things i'd like to do that you don't believe in
and there's this burning like there's always been
i've never been so alone and deep down in the cone

i go home to the coast, it starts to rain, i paddle out on the water alone
taste the salt, taste the pain and i'm thinking of you again
summer dies and swells rise, the sun goes down in my eyes
see this rolling wave, darkly coming to take me home
i've never been so alone and deep down in the cone

astrocow
19:17

it's the end

end of the road now.

it was a brilliant one year and one week with you. pity it had to end so soon but at least the last day was fantastic.

from the times in audi to the movies, late nite out together and crazy/stupid things we did, i'll never forget them. there are prolly too many things to be mentioned but i keep them in a special corner of my heart.

thank you for the memories and i really think i came off this one learning alot.

like i told you, i'll be waiting for the day when u say yes again.

much loves.

astrocow
19:11