Death is a delightful hiding place for weary men.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

perhaps i'm better off in the cyber world

i duno. maybe i'm just not cut out for this thing called life. i dun need/want any sympathy. all i want is your fricking mouths shut. period.

like i said. its fuckin over so stop fucking talking bout it like its your fucking business. does it fucking concern you? no? so fuck the hell off.

and nono, can't trust no one no more. back to square one. was actually naive enuff to believe in trust again.

i'm gonna cut.

life in shatters.
because of you fuckers.
let me be.
can't u see.
the world hates me as much as i do.
treating me like a perpetual fool.
the healing of harms.
when will it come.
i've been searching i've been crying out.
i will be destroyed by my doubts.
from the fear tt swallows up my life.
will i stay the same or will i fight.
you decide.

astrocow
08:23

Thursday, October 26, 2006

biting a bullet with your name on it

u should be honoured. no, really. listen to me, i'd hope you just shut your trap and end this shit. there's a limit to everything and that includes my patience. dun test it, i tink u noe i'm rash nuff. just dun regret on your part later cos i noe i fucking won't.

huh? thanks. =)

astrocow
19:25

Monday, October 23, 2006

escapism vs confrontation

quite pretending to be self righteous all u pple.

i am a shithead or fuckhead or dickhead or wadeva-head u meant la. say wad u all wanna say, but why didnt u do sumthing when u could haf? thanks ah, for CONVI-FUCKING-NIENTLY putting the blame on me. oh and, FUCKING COME TO ME DIRECT PLEASE THANK YOU SO MUCH. CCB.

ok despise me, hate me, look down on me. like the after-effects on my own aint nuff huh?

FUCK ALL OF YOU.

i'm thankful for pple who stand with me but for now, it is a journey i have to take alone.

bye bye hall 3.

astrocow
04:02

celebrations

birthday jus over now. really thankful for pple who remembered. more so even when my own family did not even mention anything.

so here it is. thanks
jackie
xiaotian
shee mun
ya en
wei ching
thistle
huimin
janice
karen
huijun
jianfeng
nicole
baochern
stephy
daniel tan
cheryl
jilin
darren ma
asha
yejie
guoliang
jackson
pariss international buffet!!

and of cos not forgetting pple who celebrated with me.
liwei
bingxun
chua weiming
daniel shen

duno if i forgot anybody, but yeah thanks anyway. 22 is not fun.

astrocow
03:48

Saturday, October 07, 2006

lost inspiration direction confusion

just duno wad to blog anymore esp when there are so many things to do. so there u go, some random stuff i picked up from sawah's blog.

1. My “ex” is still... somewhere in singapore.
2. I am listening to my roomie's movie blasting from his earphones.
3. Maybe I should... grow up.
4. I love... the way people backstab one another.
5. My best friend... sorry don't have one.
6. I don’t understand... why we have to do the things we do.
7. I lost... hope and faith.
8. People say... that I look intimidating.
9. The meaning of my screen name is... always lacking creativity.
10. Love is... not in the air, the smoke from the forest fires are.
11. Somewhere, someone is... drooling in his/her sleep.
12. I will always... be unable to do the things i really i wanna do.
13. Forever seems... so far away.
14. I never ever want to... do it again.
15. My cell phone is... GODDAMN FREAKING LOUSY.
16. When I woke up this morning... i haven't slept.
17. I get annoyed... very easily, stay clear.
18. Parties are... what i used to go very often.
19. My pet(s) are... lovable and cute and stupid. that's what makes them cute anw.
20. Kisses are the best when... received and not given. yes, i'm selfish.
21. Today I... haf no idea wad i'm supposed to do.
22. Tomorrow I will... think of wad to do.
23. I really want... to be happy.

7 random things about myself:
1. i have few close friends, in fact none.
2. i wanna haf a dog in hall.
3. i hope i can make up my mind.
4. i am not as scary as i look.
5. i wanna have infinie mental stamina.
6. i am weak.
7. i wanna be happy.

i duno man, still tinking tinking tinking. whether i shld pull out of the Chingay team. we are called Double Shock anw. it seems like dance has finally taken its toll on me, and this may be time for me to take a break.

irresponsible? *shrugs*

astrocow
07:16