Death is a delightful hiding place for weary men.

Monday, July 31, 2006

aggression

i understand that i may have been a tad too aggressive, maybe even unreasonable in the process. but the screwup is just a lil' too massive to ignore.

maybe i'm wrong. maybe there isn't a screw up afterall. maybe, just maybe.

astrocow
00:52

i need ice cream

i thought i would have been able to get through todae without having to get a lil ice cream to cheer myself up. but sumhow, events have managed to prove me wrong.

i desperately need a cone or two now.

astrocow
00:51

cheezels

dun do anything you can't do well.

the world ain't fair, the subject of criticism gets the stick. they bear the brunt for not showing a false front. just wad is wrong with being themselves? what you see is not what you get, mind you. who knows best? not you definitely.

if this carries on, i'm outta it. no point in doing something that screws up as big time as this.

the only reason that i might just be staying is i might think twice bout abandoning the group. or they might just kick me out, i don't really care. not my loss.

astrocow
00:46

Sunday, July 30, 2006

imbalance revisited - frustration

hall camp started today... which caused me to miss out on yet ANOTHER audition. AT FREAKING MTV for goodness sake, not taking into account that we are actually required to do a solo routine. never minds...

Aztec - my group thus far has only got 9 guys and zero girls, yes ZERO, NONE, ZILCH. it's not that i have any ulterior motives but it really does affect the morale of the group when the situation gets THIS bad. even MSE FOC was better. think the organisation of the whole thing's pretty screwed but wad to do? Make the best of what you haf dope! Really thankful though that i've got my AJ juniors together with me so the experience wasnt as painful. hope things will get better as days goes by.

Performance for hall dance was a total screw up. period.

astrocow
01:05

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

MSE FOC '06 - Nemo

This is the group. The one and only.

This is me, the mastermind.

The old people.

The young fishes.

The fishes combined.

it has ended, 6 days 5 nights of exhausting but terrific fun. never did expect it to turn out as well as it did. it's really all thanks to the people who gave their support and made it possible. wonderful group of freshies and gang of seniors i had, simply couldn't ask for more.

even though we missed out on the first place (by only 5 points), it was definitely more than a good show put up by the group. placed 3rd for the 1st n 2nd day, we caught up and got 1st for the next 3 days consecutively. unfortunately, it just wasn't nuff to make it up. still, like i've said, i'm uber proud of this group of people.

nemo - just keep on swimming yah?

astrocow
02:39

Monday, July 17, 2006

full of rage

senior camp for hall is over, performance at taka is over. that's 2 things off my load now. MSE FOC starting tml.

which is the cause of my rage. i was jus informed a couple of hours ago that there's an audition for a commercial looking for young chinese dancers and i can't go because of the camp!! it's a friggin 1000 bucks for the group if we get it man. i want the 1000 bucks, i want to be in a commercial! but oh well. some things just not meant to be.

performance todae went pretty smoothly, din really get myself into a shitload of embarrassment by forgetting my steps. and anw, really gotta thank the girls who made their way down. oh and do visit this site: King Kong Jane

it's jianping's band and i think he's an awesome drummer!! haha the vocalist, Colin is like an energizer battery on stage man. non stop all the way, if you get wad i mean.

gong to bed now, haven had 8 hours of slp in a day for a week now.

zzzzzzzz

astrocow
02:12

Saturday, July 15, 2006

not supposed to be

this was really supposed to be a happy post and all after i did my hair yest.. but a series of events that happened after that kinda dampened the mood..

stephy sprained her ankle during class yest, jus hope she recovers soon and we'll be able to perfect the routine!!
sunday's performance at taka is slowly but surely taking up a bit of a shape after 2 long weeks. for those interested, this sunday 12pm n 230pm at taka, exactly where i also not sure ahha.

todae is the first day of senior camp for hall OC. things did not go well for me personally, sigh.. for the time i was there, i am sure i did do my job just that i did not make it explicit enough, and thus efforts not recognised.

i am never one to flaunt and show wadeva i do, be it behind the scenes or at the scene itself. nonetheless, i'm disappointed to say the least. this is going on to become a rambling post la wtf.

i shall stop here.

manipulation, and it's killing me
communication, and it's killing me
contradiction, and it's killing me
love for refusal, and it's killing me
wake up, don't you die
we're all out to lose control
we all now have lost control
thinking of the wish u made to break free
shove it in your face
i never wanted to change the world
i always wanted simple days
my own private fantasy
distane will tear you apart
fatigue's the trump card

astrocow
02:48

Saturday, July 08, 2006

dance machine

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8... this are the only numbers going thru my head for the past week or so and will be for the next 2-3 weeks at the very least - everyday! just picture, tuesdaes, thursdaes and sundays allocated for MJ practices. slot in practices for the upcoming performance at taka on the 16th, practices for the mass dance for hall OC, performance during OC... planning for games during hall OC, preparing for MSE FOC happening on 17th-22nd, senior camp for hall OC 14th - 16th.. wad time do i have left?

4 sets of choreography to remember and executed to its finest detail.. its really starting to take a toll on me. but fret not, i'm not about to give up just yet.

Dance Machine HOOOOOOOO~!~!~!~!~!~!

oh yah, pat's partnering routine is a killer. Stephy! i'll do better next practice!! haha =p

DMX - We 'Bout To Blow feat. Big Stan

astrocow
21:10

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

woohoo!!

Marzi di Italia su!!!

Grosso n Del Piero wins it for the Azzurris!!! Cannavaro outstanding once again!!! Whoever said the scandal was going to affect them??

The Cup is on the way!!

astrocow
05:51

Sunday, July 02, 2006

step, step up

nono it's not the linkin park song.. it's another dance movie that's coming up!! yea, follows after take the lead, honey, you got served blah blah blah.. i'm lovin' it!! (no propaganda intended here) =p

step up now!!!

astrocow
07:18

crystalline

The agony in my heart mirrors the darkness of my silent desires.

A rock all alone on the shore and if you look closely, it shines. Sometimes its dull and has no colour or definite shape. Sometimes the sun hits it just right and it glows every colour - it has the shape of beauty. A rock all alone on the shore has no one to look at it, the waves are its only audience, the sky and sand are it's only home. Eventually, the rock is swept away into the ocean - all it's beauty lost, all it's glow returns to the abyss, all it's potential drowned. Out of it's thousands of deaths and rebirths, the rock sits upon the shore once more.

I've seen it, and it dies no more.

Man, what on earth am i thinking?

astrocow
06:25

Saturday, July 01, 2006

yeah!!

Forza Italia!!!

astrocow
05:30