Death is a delightful hiding place for weary men.

if i only knew what regret meant

yes, you're just listening to my boring rants

Saturday, March 04, 2006

~~fuck~~ friends

these couple of days have kinda made me
realise what kinda ~~friends~~ hypocrites i haf around me
who are really close to me (not many)
who are the ones who really trust me

i'm getting frustrated by the rejections
i'm getting annoyed by the avoidance
it is not my loss that they fail to see my sincerity
it is their loss to think that i am up to no good

i'm sure in time to come
they will regret the decisions they made todae
for not believing in me
for shunning me

i really do want to help the pple around me
wad i am doing is not jus about me
why are u idiots so narrow minded
i'm really utterly disappointed

i will make sure, personally ensure
do not blame me when the time comes
for not approaching you (cos i did, not just once)
be prepared to be green with envy

in the near future
i will be able to see thru who are the real ~~friends~~ hypocrites
who are the ones whom i can really can my own
the ones i can depend on

oh hypocrites,
arent u sick of ur mask
i'll clean u all up in one sweep
take them off and quit being the arse

i haf dreams
i haf aspirations
i need to find like-minded people
i need to wake up soon

it may seem like a fallacy now
it is not wad u tink it is
c'mon u ~~friends~~ hypocrites
i'll send all of u back to sleep

all u ~~friends~~ hypocrites who dun even give me a chance
u should be ashamed to be calling me ur fren
u say u trust me
but jus too bad, i dun trust any of u anymore

i can only rely on myself

The above is not directed at anybody in particular, they should know who they are. Frens with a clear conscience, please do not be affected by it. My judgement is not that bad.

i haf alot to prove
to myself
to my family
to the masked pple around me

do not bother bout with ur act anymore
i noe it is tiring (because i've tried before)
ur facade
ur pretence
it makes me sick, i wanna throw up

those who stand by me
gave me support
trusted me
i love u guys
(damn that was so brokeback)

argh, wadeva go to hell u motherfuckers
may u burn for all eternity there
for that, me u may wanna curse
but jus tink, is it really fair

u'll never noe wad i'm feeling deep inside
dun even try, dun even bother
to comprehend the tears i have cried
it will only bring u further

wad i jus need is an arm of support
a pat on the back, a hug even
jus tt and u, i will not fault
den we will be at equal distance from the fulcrum

there is a chance that we can walk together
to close up the distance, nonetheless at the same pace
when we meet in the centre for a cuddle
we will better see each other's true face

astrocow
09:41